https://youtu.be/NtopVxd9zx0?si=0bUkTkwESvd2b1Zk

made a vid of me painting

https://youtu.be/NtopVxd9zx0?si=0bUkTkwESvd2b1Zk

i have a new sc now

it got banned and then reallowed cus i spammed in my friend yuzamei's id showcase

i changed the branding too

i made it cus my old accounts were running out of space

this one has dnb, deep dub, square 4 riddim, and deathstep like my usual tracks!

i also made the album covers photos i took

also i submitted stuff to havoc records which is a record label focused on square 4

https://soundcloud.com/wesbr708709579

I love doom I love piracy

Yeahhhhhhh

@lemin-kidd

My mother bought me a new tablet

This is the first thing I do on it 😭😂🤣😂🤣🔥🔥😎🤑 I love piracy 🥰🥰🥰🥰🤩🤩🤩😍🤩🥳🥴

Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Oooooooooooooooooooo

I'm using my sister's phone rn btw

These all are reviews I said

ok so i stopped playing for a year i went back for 2 weeks and then my mom banned me from my computer for 2 weeks and now i went back and this is very recent best amount of kills ive gotten

my friend gave it to me for my birthday, it is my first controller, im gonna use it to play driving games

Tw ending self references rant

I actually despise myself like actually

I've seen so much people that are my age or younger achieving great things like they make good art and dubstep and I'm sitting here barely improving within like 4 years of making dubstep and 1 year of art and there's a 13 year old guy named extra he's already releasing on dubstep labels and making good and well mixed and mastered music and I'm basically barely eqing my songs and only knowing to stereo widen some stuff

My cousin Gus makes really good person art but I only barely know how to draw people

There was artworks by a 7 year old on an art fair I was going to and it was really good landscapes and he apparently made them when he was 5???!!!! Like I'm probably a lost cause at 15 I should already be good for something

I feel like my purpose is not clear

Do I have a purpose when I can't even draw a mountain well?

Fulfilling my purpose is one of the 3 only things preventing me from ending myself

The 2nd is the fact that my sister will be sad if I perish

The 3rd is that I'm scared of death cus I'm a wimpy loser

Speaking of my sister my sister and Gus and all his friends are better than me at writing

I suck at writing

I'm the most linear writer ever I don't have the magic

I hate myself

Should I just give up