whats up

i'm losing motivation to do any form of art!!! i can't even make dubstep!!!! dubstep!!! every time i have had sad mode i still was able to make music even when i wasn't able to make art or write!!!! what the fuckity fuck!!!! shittitty shitty crap frickity frick!!!! was tthat funny i hope it was

I follow skream on twitter because

1. he make intersting tweets
2. i am waiting for him to release dubstep again
3. he posts dubstep clips on twitter
4. i feel guilty for not listening to deep dub or "real dubstep"

i turned on dark mode so you guys don't get burnt eyes

so skream made a tweet

and my dumb ass responded with

i litterally do not know why i commented this, i had a headache at the time and i was really dumb, i thought it was a genuine question and i forgot to respect dubstep pioneers

anyways skream responded sarcastically with

and then some people rresponded to me

i made a few tunes as a sorry to the dubstep community

anyways thats it

(mild religion warning)

i aint really a religous person so i hope this doesn't sound too dumb

so today my family (except my dad) went on a roadtrip and my mom always makes us listen to a recorded mass on youtube (religous storytelling and concert time at sundays) so we was listening to a manaoag mass and it started with 2 really good songs, like the songs were insane. it had wind instruments, organs, violins, and really good choir. Those songs were so fudging good, like movie orchestral music CAN NOT compare to the stuff they was playing, after the 2 songs there wwas storytelling and then there were songs where the priest sang but the preist's mic was shit and the only instrument was organ so it sounded fucking lame. the preist's mic was unfathomly bad, like it sounds like a put one of my unreleased neuro tunes's effects on a mic, i think it also had too much upper mid and high frequencies but i aint very good at EQing so i don't really trust myself.

tldr

so there was 2 really good song at a recorded mass (christian story time and concert time) but the nextt songs got bad

aw man my DAW only lets me export to wav for some reason

oops im gonna post them soon maybe possibly

apparrent say they use waveform free so i downloaded it and its bassically ableton but terrible

like, i use LMMS but at least lmms has default synths that don't lag and has many effects

I wouldn't be that desperate to get ableton-like features if the DAW is terrible in free version

should i make my tunes creative commons on newgrounds or soundcloud, which one is better?

always i get my drum volume wrong. it used to be that i would have my snare 5 times louder than my sounds like a year ago, but now i get my drums too soft. i litterally cannot know if my drum volume is too much or too little until a few days after i post the track. just why is it so dumb, why can't my brain work like others and find what is the best drum volume during making the song, whyyyyyyyyyyyyy